Sometimes its hard. It challenges you to the point were you almost start to question if there really is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Thankfully, there has been nothing but light for me this past month.
I got into graduate school, am moving to Italy for the summer, graduated with a 3.6 GPA, and I get to be a little bit selfish....
I thought that having Alex leave would be the scariest, hardest, worst thing I could possibly live through.
Instead it has turned out to be the best thing I could have asked for.
What better time is there then RIGHT now to be selfish? Do the things that I want to do. Focus on my own dreams. Not feel obligated to anyone or anything.
Same for him. Its HIS time to live HIS life.
I couldn't be happier.
Living my life for myself is something I havent had the chance to do for quite awhile. And its so liberating to feel free.
I can be whoever I want to be. Do whatever I want to do.
I cant wait for this next chapter and the people and the opportunities that it brings to me.
The people. The food. The experiences. The lessons.
Its going to be so magical.
I already feel like this past three weeks has been life changing. And I have already made new friends and met new people that have really left a impact on me.
Everything is changing. Alex isnt the main person in my life. Angie moved up to Park City. Kelly moved to New York. Everyone else is focused on their boyfriends and getting married.
And for the first time EVER in my life.... I am not sad or scared or worried about everything changing.
I am ready. I am excited. I am anxious for it to already happen!
I cant wait to see what life is gonna throw at all of us next.
Dark tunnels or light.
I have had the most incredible lessons thrown at me.
From the dark ones, like loosing my grandma, watching my mom get heart surgery, my father battle clinical depression, and the uncertainty..
To the light ones like California, Israel, Europe, making new friends, getting Charlie, and watching my family overcome everything....
Each and every single one of them has taught me a valuable lesson. I wouldn't change one thing.
And I am more then ready for every other lesson that destiny has headed my way.
Good or bad.
As for everyone else going through change? I think they are gonna end up JUST fine ;)
