Thrill

Have you ever looked around and wondered how people can be ok with "settling"- accepting something that is only "good enough" or "as good as its gonna get"?

I do that every single day.

I dont know if I am crazy... Or have unrealistic expectations. 

I want more. I never want to just be "satisfied" with something. I want it to be amazing. Thrilling. Exciting. Difficult. 

From travelling, people, and love... To my career.

I want to live my life to the fullest. Never settling- and never having to look back on anything and wonder "what if?"

Thankfully, I have learned my own value and power. Setting goals that give me something to work towards. I am proud of what I have been able to accomplish. I know I am worthy of a life that I picture for myself.

Not because I think I am "better" or "special" but because I know that when I want something.... I am willing to do whatever it takes to get it. 

Learning to be confident in myself and sticking to my decisions, listening to my gut, and constantly reminding myself that "there is more out there" has lead me to some pretty amazing things. 11 different countries, amazing people, places, experiences, a masters program, an job that I love, good friends around me, and respect of my parents. At 21, thats pretty damn good. 

I didn't get here easy. Some might say I am "spoiled', however, I worked my ass off  in order to save for my trips to Europe, get into graduate school, graduate college in 3 years, I am also aware I will probably spend a lot more time busting my ass off in order to get what I want out of my life.

I am okay with that. 

Yes, I was blessed with a supportive family. However, I also have been the ring leader and decided that I will never settle for less.

 Its taken a lot of hurt and loss of people that really mattered to me- it taught me to be diligent and aware of things and to clear my life of people that dont want what is best for me. 

I am realizing that sometimes it will take me hurting people that wont be able to meet me at the level I need them too, being hurt, failing, pushing forward, and constantly re-evaluating my priorities. 

Yet- I somehow know it will all be worth it.

Everything I picture of my life. It will happen. I will fight for it.

I wont settle for "good" or "okay"

Because life comes around once and if you settle- you'll never get another chance. 

So...

If you want true love- dont settle

If you want to go travel and see the world- dont settle

If you want good health- dont settle

If you want true friends- dont settle

If you want opportunity- dont settle

If you want freedom- dont settle

If you want money- dont settle

If you want hope- dont settle

If you want peace- dont settle

Go out there and figure out a way to get it. But god damn- dont EVER settle.